Happy Birthday, Papa...

my late father’s birthday..

Yesterday I didn’t know why I felt so gloomy, dull, numb, dizzy..
I was intended to do fasting actually...
However when I woke up for sahur in the morning, I got headache and tummy ache..

So I decided not to do it…
I just stayed at home.. Took a deep sleep.. And did usual activities such as eat, eat and eat, hehehe…

And when Maghrib’s praying time came, I straightly went to the mosque…
After having sholat Maghrib, as usually I did on 'Malam Jumaat', I (and other people there) recited Surrah Yassin…

I dedicated to Papa, Ibu, Wey, Ayoh, Widada’s late father who passed away last month and my late grandparents (Opa, Oma, Kakek and Nenek)...

After we finished recite the Surrah Yassin, the Imam started praying…
And there… There was a moment… I started to cry when the Imam prayed in Bahasa Melayu..
(because usually he prayed in Arabic which I don’t understand any single of the words)…

The content of the 'doa' actually was quite common..
But I don’t know.. For me.. At that time.. it was so touching..
As I remembered my late father, my tears felt down swiftly..

I wished he was there sitting beside me..
And I hugged him..
And kissed his cheek..

Papa.. Please forgive all the sins and fault I caused to you…
I have nothing to give in your birthday…
Only my sincere doa..

I wish you’re happy ‘up’ there..
Restful in Allah’s shelter..

Happy Birthday, Papa..
I will always love you..
Je t'aimerais toujours...

**In commemoration of Muhammad Ismael Oesman…

Overjoyed -- Stevie Wonder

Over time, I've been building my castle of love
Just for two, though you never knew you were my reason
I've gone much too far for you now to say
That I've got to throw my castle away

Over dreams, I have picked out a perfect come true
Though you never knew it was of you I've been dreaming
The sandman has come from too far away
For you to say come back some other day

And though you don't believe that they do
They do come true
For did my dreams
Come true when I looked at you
And maybe too, if you would believe
You too might be
Overjoyed, over loved, over me

Over hearts, I have painfully turned every stone
Just to find, I had found what I've searched to discover
I've come much too far for me now to find
The love that I've sought can never be mine

And though you don't believe that they do
They do come true
For did my dreams
Come true when I looked at you
And maybe too, if you would believe
You too might be
Overjoyed, over loved, over me

And though the odds say improbable
What do they know
For in romance
All true love needs is a chance
And maybe with a chance you will find
You too like I
Overjoyed, over loved, over you, over you



* one of my favorite everlasting song

haruskah hati menciptakan jarak

Suatu hari sang guru bertanya kepada murid-muridnya,
"Mengapa ketika seseorang sedang dalam keadaan marah, ia akan berbicara dengan suara kuat atau berteriak?"

Seorang murid setelah berpikir cukup lama mengangkat tangan dan menjawab,
"Karena saat seperti itu ia telah kehilangan kesabaran, karena itu ia lalu berteriak."

"Tapi..." sang guru balik bertanya,"lawan bicaranya justru berada di sampingnya.
Mengapa harus berteriak? Apakah ia tak dapat berbicara secara halus?"

Hampir semua murid memberikan sejumlah alasan yang dikira benar menurut pertimbangan mereka. Namun tak satu pun jawaban yang memuaskan.

Sang guru lalu berkata,
"Ketika dua orang sedang berada dalam situasi kemarahan, jarak antara ke dua hati mereka menjadi amat jauh walau secara fisik mereka begitu dekat.
Karena itu, untuk mencapai jarak yang demikian, mereka harus berteriak.
Namun anehnya, semakin keras mereka berteriak, semakin pula mereka menjadi marah dan dengan sendirinya jarak hati yang ada di antara keduanya pun menjadi lebih jauh lagi.
Karena itu mereka terpaksa berteriak lebih keras lagi."

Sang guru masih melanjutkan,
"Sebaliknya, apa yang terjadi ketika dua orang saling jatuh cinta?
Mereka tak hanya tidak berteriak, namun ketika mereka berbicara suara yang keluar dari mulut mereka begitu halus dan kecil.
Sehalus apa pun, keduanya bisa mendengarkannya dengan begitu jelas. Mengapa demikian?"

Sang guru bertanya sambil memperhatikan para muridnya.
Mereka nampak berpikir amat dalam namun tak satupun berani memberikan jawaban.

"Karena hati mereka begitu dekat, hati mereka tak berjarak.
Pada akhirnya sepatah kata pun tak perlu diucapkan.
Sebuah pandangan mata saja amatlah cukup membuat mereka memahami apa yang ingin mereka sampaikan."

Sang guru masih melanjutkan,
"Ketika Anda sedang dilanda kemarahan, janganlah hati mu menciptakan jarak.
Lebih lagi hendaknya kamu tidak mengucapkan kata yang mendatangkan jarak di antara kamu.
Mungkin di saat seperti itu, tak mengucapkan kata-kata mungkin merupakan cara yang bijaksana.
Karena waktu akan membantu Anda."


*Selamat menyongsong hari kasih sayang....*

Happy Anniversary

When I first met you...

I fell in love so fast...

I knew right then...

You were the one and only one for me..

I'd never have to look for love again..

Each anniversary finds us happier..

You are my light--my moon, my star, my sun..

You show me what real love is all about..

You fill my life with pleasure, joy and fun..

As time goes by, our love grows stronger still..

You're the most amazing one I ever knew..

I prize our anniversaries because..

Each time I fall in love again with you..